Hollie Darrell Smith

My Dear Brother, you and I shall travel through the Ion-Nebula one more time to say good-bye.  You have fought many battles on my behalf.  Now we will smoke the pipe of your ancestors to see the visions.  I now must fight a hard battle because I do not want to say good-bye.  I will go through the Ion-Nebula with you this one last time.  I will fight the TSU-LA-S-GI and the Snewts and I will become a steak connoisseur.  I will journey now with you to the One-Millionth Planets of the universe so we can call tod council all the Shaman of your people.  There, I must leave you.  I do not want to, but I must.  I have my picture of the Ion-Nebula that you sent me, so you will never be far from my heart.  All I have to do is get out my picture and I can find you anytime and we can go Rap at Pap's.  If you see my son, would you tell him I love and miss him very much.  You and Robert take care of each other.

I love you!

Your Belligerent sewer of little Green Men,

    No See 'Um Brenda 

My Brother,

     I have been trying to write this letter to you for a long time. I have so many fond memories of us growing up together. I talk to you everyday in my head but it is so hard to write the words.

     I want to tell you about Whinemoore. He keeps Stan and me busy washing his mouth out several times a day. Did I forget to tell you that he likes to eat cat pooh. Every time we go outside he goes on the hunt for the biggest freshest smelliest pile. He loves water and I think he just likes getting the waterhose turned on him. After he finds a pile he runs to the spring or the waterhose. He even jumped into the bathtub with Owen. Yesterday we trimed the big pecan tree beside the house and he helped drag the limbs to the creek so we could fill in a spot where the water washed part of the bank away. I had a very bad day a couple of weeks ago and I lay down on the bed to cry. He jumped up beside me put his front paw on my shoulder and laid his muzzle on the back of my head. I knew you were trying to comfort me. It helped. Thanks.

      I still can't believe your gone. When I tell you these things I want you to talk back to me. I want to tell you the latest things that Amelia and Owen have done and hear you tell me that you will never be that wrapped up in your grandchildren when we both know that you would. I wanted for you to see Amelia eat. You would have gotten such a kick out of her. I wanted to tell you I told you so when you had a grandbaby of your own.

      I want to see you smile. I want to hear you laugh. I'm angry with all those doctors for not saving you and I'm angry that life isn't fair because if it were you would still be here. And I feel so sorry for myself because you're not here that I can't stand it.

      Stan and I are getting ready to go back to your farm. It's not the same without you there. Merry is so lost without you as are Emma and Dale. I pretend that you are just out in one of the fields. You and Merry worked so hard to make the farm beautiful. I love to sit on the back porch and just look. It is beautiful.

      Thank you for being my baby brother and giving me memories that only a loving brother can give. But I miss you so much.

      Tell Robert to behave and tell Mommy that I love her.

I love you

Your sister, Two Moons McButt

I was talking to one of the guys at work today and I started remembering some of the good times we had hunting.  I told him about the squirrell that you shot out of a tree when all you could see was the tail hanging on the underside of a limb and how I had to go get it.  I was a little upset that I didn't see it and that I had to go thru some thick stuff to get to it.  All I could think about was getting ate up by a snake.  I told him about when we went berry picking at buffalo and how mom left pappaw in the berry patch.  It took her two steps and she was at the truck and pappaw didn't know what had happened.  Those were some great times.  I also told him about you taking me around the property and holding onto my ankle because I was hanging off the back of the four wheeler.  It was kinda scary at first, then it became funny.  I could just imagine myself rolling down the hillside and having to climb back to the top.  I miss you so much.  I miss talking to you and you giving me advice or talking me thru a tough day. I call mom all the time and alot of times I catch myself getting ready to ask where your at.  I miss you more and more each day.  I want my daddy back.  I love you so much.  I wish I could do something to have you back.  I would give anything.  I love you dad.

Emma

I remember all the times you use to take us riding in the hills, then something stupid would happen, like Michelle almost rolling out the back of the truck, but that was  some of the fun times.

I loved it  when you would sneak flowers in the bedroom with a surprise stuck in middle of them; the prize was just as beautiful as the flowers.  I love you so,so,so much

love  Starr

I  missed you talking to me while I was working in the garden today.   I miss our talks late into the night after we go to bed.   I miss making breakfast and both of us sitting at the table eating.   I miss your face, your smile, your laughter, your voice, and your touch.